I don't really know what I want really from this post, and I don't see a way out of it, but I'm really lonely right now and isolated.
I have a very small family, my mother and grandmother and that's it, and I have no friends or other relationships at all really and I'm just feeling so, so alone and wanting more.
Right now I'm worried to even join anything, like clubs or something, but I can't really find anything. And I looked into help from Mind, but they have something really great nearby, but I'm on the other side of the boundary, so I cannot access it and there's nothing in my area.
I don't know, I probably sound really whiny right now, I'm just feeling sorry for myself and had to put it out into the void so it wasn't just circling in my own head.