have posted a few messages since been back on here.
basically over the last few years i have had a terrible time.
my step mother sadly passed away, i was sort of expecting this as she had dementia. my dad had been caring for her but what i did not expect was the passing away of my dad as well.
when he was still here he kept telling me he was okay but then i found out he had given up and was starving himself which then resulted in a sudden heart attack.
since then every day has been struggles for me, i am on medication which sort of takes the edge off things but then i get flash backs.
i was watching flog it and there was a couple on and it took them 10 years just to start getting over their loss.
i have been offered counselling but am worried it could open a big can of worms, for now it is just one day at time.
well that is what has been happening since been away from here.
for those who know me hope you are all well,
mike